Perspective
I walked out of the room, out the front door, to the main road. It was strange leaving the place with a heavy heart, a place I claimed to have no attachment with. I got out, turned left and watched the sun, setting behind an apartment building, sun-rays coming through the branches of a tree, the road glistening with raindrops as it had just rained an hour ago. It felt heavenly, and I had a sudden realization (and also an urge to click a picture of course). I took out my phone from the pocket and tried to focus the scene, but my phone being the potato it is didn’t capture it the way I wanted, it was dull and just empty. I quickly asked my father for his phone, and well it being expensive with a much better lens captured it exactly the way I wanted it. All the colors, the blue sky, yellow of the sun-rays, the green tree and grey road, captured beautifully.
Later it made me think; just like all it took was a better camera for the image to look scenic, it’s all about the perspective in life as well isn’t it? Just a different way of looking at the same thing, all it needs a different, better point of view and mindset and the same situation might not be so bad. Easier said than done right? I know. But it takes an effort to be content. It takes effort to be optimistic and to change the way you process a situation. Speaking for myself, this past year, it was as if I didn’t let myself be happy. I confined myself to my room and books, which isn’t bad, but it was for me at that time. A lot has happened since that phase, not all is better, but now I am trying to make most of what I have right now. I am trying to change the way I look at myself, the way I go through problems in my life, and it helps, damn it helps so much just to have a positive attitude, to have faith in yourself and your instincts, shutting out the opinions of people who don’t know half the shit you go through. Stop listening to them. Stop looking down on yourself. Stop letting them affect you. Just stop.
For simpler and much effective words let me just quote Taylor Swift (that woman is something else), “People are mean to each other but no voices are as mean as our own voices are to ourselves. Every day when you look in the mirror and your mind is telling you all the things you’re not, if those things are, you’re not cool enough, you’re not pretty enough, you’re not popular enough, you’re not successful enough, you’re not special, you’re not wanted, you’re not unique, those are not the things you are not. Let me tell you the things you are not. Okay. You are not somebody else’s opinion of you, that’s what you’re not. You are not going anywhere just because you are not where you want to be yet. You are not damaged goods, just because you have made mistakes in your life. Those are the things you are not. Let me tell you the things that you are. You are your own definition of beautiful and worthwhile and no one else’s definition. You are wiser, stronger and smarter because you made mistakes in your life.”
And for the record, I saw this video of her on my Instagram and I thought I liked it, so I scrolled past month’s “posts you’ve liked” section, only to find I didn’t. Then I searched on YouTube “Taylor Swift inspirational speech” and it was the first video that showed up. I am a clown, I know, thank you very much.
